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Now that seemed a very long time coming to me.Long and tiresome 7 years and I was too tired to acknowledge it.

The first thing that hit me was how could Swami Virajeshwara get it and not me?

I was hoping for some miracle to happen to me and tell me in the ear that you are there.

But then it suddenly came up to me like a sudden impulse which drives us to do unknown activities.

One day I was in deep meditation and I found that I have become a small cell in the whole body and was drifting in the blood stream. I did not have any self drive to extricate myself from that place. I was forced by the flow of blood to just go along and I just went flowing in the blood stream. I did not have a will of my own. Suddenly I saw myself turning up as the body itself and driving this cell further and further.

I saw the whole world floating inside of me. Every tiny cell in the body was a being and the whole universe was compacted in this being.I seemed to grow bigger and bigger and far beyond proportions. The earlier feeling of being a small cell vanished and inplace I was the mightiest of the beings around.

I seemed to direct the entire flow of creation and dissolution in my being.

It was a stupendous experience far beyond human understanding.

I suddenly got off and now I could feel my being floating and visiting places not seen by me ever. It was all so weird for me to know all that.

My dream or that experience ended and I came back to normal.

I had earlier had an out of body experience which taught me to look at my own body and observe every small thing around me.

I was able to commune with the God of Death also during that phase but this was far beyond my own reckoning.I was in deep sleep or meditative state.

Though my Kundalini vibrations were of low intensity earlier, they suddenly increased beyond proportions and I found myself begging for some relief from the constant pain in the back and neck.

My urge to be one with the universe became very intense and I felt swinging wildly from one state to another.

I wanted relief from all these traumas and so I prayed fervently day after day.

I just felt like running away from this material world.

I then decided that by the month of May 2007 I shall run away to the Himalayas.

It was full one year before I would be doing that.

I would sit in the store like a zombie and fight with everyone at any given opportunity.

I was searching for peace within myself and wanting to know who is this wonderful being who is giving me this knowledge and experiences.

I craved for that little peace that I could get from these worldly or out worldly afflictions. The intensity of the need to understand grew on me day after day.

I could not co-relate to anything or anyone during these periods.

I read voraciously and assimilated a lot of information during that period.

I was hoping that some tangible being would be my preceptor, but that was not to be.

I hoped that some open book was lying somewhere from which I was getting all that knowledge but again that was a far cry.

I prayed to all known Gods during that period.

Ma Kali was my Goddess and Saibaba was my kula Guru.

Then suddenly one fine day I was taken to that place which made me sit up.